June 28, 2011 Day 23

So let's see what's been going on for the past few days. I'm still going to the gym and making progress there. I've gone from one workout a week which killed me to two workouts which are a lot easier on me. They're still a lot of work, but I am getting to where it takes me less time to recover in between sets. Later on I'll link this to my bodybuilding page with all of the stats in case you're that interested.

Last night I went to BestBuy and looked at stereo equipment. I was very impressed by the knowledge of the sales lady. At first I thought "what does a chick know about stereos?" Then after talking to her for a while, I found out she really knew the products they sell very well…I wanted to marry her. I fell in love right then. Anyway, we put together a good package and rough estimate for my grandmother's home theater. Tomorrow morning I'm going to meet with the cabinet builders again to get a firm estimate on the cost to rebuild part of the wall. I don't think it should be too expensive. I mean it's still not cheap, but doable. Then on Thursday, I have another home theater installer coming to give a bid on what it'll cost to build this system and what he recommends. I'm feeling more and more like I'm going to use the Home Theater Store, though. Unless this guy really impresses me. We'll see.

This afternoon I got my tobacco rolling machine, so now I can start making MYO cigarettes. I've made one video on basically what I bought and how it all seemed when I got it. It took about a week to get here, but now that it's here I love it. I used Criss Cross tobacco and D & R Windsail. Both are very good. I mean I've tried some cheap cigarettes and to be honest they suck big ones. I can't stand cheap cigs. They just taste awful and smell bad. Ever since the law was passed that all cigarettes had to be "Fire Safe" meaning they go out on their own if you don't keep puffing, they've been awful. And really, I've had more problems with the FSC, than I ever did with the regular. So, I'm now into the MYO cigarettes. I was really surprised, they taste really good and I would do the Pepsi challenge with either of these tobaccos against anything store bought in a heartbeat. They really taste good. They last longer, cost about $1.40 a pack to make, so I'm saving a butt load on them. I think they've got a little more nicotine in them because they will make your head spin. But really, if you've been thinking to yourself "should I quit? Or, roll my own?" Give the roll your own a try, I feel like you'll love them. I do. I gave a few of them to my mother and she said she could be very happy if she never bought another store cigarette again. Also, it's just a great way as a smoker to take a political stand against a government that wants to tax the hell out of a product and then pass a bunch of bullshit laws saying where and when you can smoke them. If everyone who smoked would set a date, and we all joined together to not buy even a single pack of store bought cigs for at least a month, it would cripple the government and they would have no choice but to give into our demands as smokers. I hope one day soon we can all get together and do this. I'd love to see it happen. Then maybe the bitch-head ass-wipes who are so rude to us could then turn around and kiss our asses. Anyway, that's enough with that rant. Roll your own America. Grow your own…even better.

So I guess that's be all for today. 

    

June 24, 2011 Day19

Well, it's been a few days since I've written anything about what's going on. So let me bring you up to speed. Where to begin? I began working on my grandmother's home theater. It's really going to be kickass. I'm talking to a man at a theater store about B & W speakers. I had only read about them a million times, so my heart was set on them. But when I finally got the green light to spend some money—even though it was someone else's, I couldn't wait to go listen to these speakers in person. WOW! That's all I can say. I mean little ceiling speakers that sound as good as any middle of the line floor speaker. It blew my mind. Then I looked at TVs, and fell in love with a 70" Sharp TV. Amazing picture, and in case you're looking for the same thing in a TV I am, it has the least reflective screen. I sure hope the manufactures of TVs take note from Sharp on this one. The matt screens are where it's at. So this has been taking hours and hours of my time, planning it all out, taking photos, getting bids from contractors to remodel my grandmother's living room wall to accommodate all of this. Taking measurements and asking and answering questions. If you want a great system for not a lot of money, and you don't want to see anything but the TV, you have to do your homework. I'm still waiting on two bids to come through and I'm going to talk to another home theater installer this week. I looked at his website and if the pictures are of projects he's completed, then he's pretty talented and worth a look. That'll be next week sometime. I expect to be finished with it all by the first of August.

What else? I had two doctor's appointments this week with doctors I've never met before. I liked one of them. He's the dermatologist. The other is the Endocrinologist I'm seeing because of diabetes and other things. I didn't really like him. He's foreign and sounds like he just got off the boat. I have no idea where he went to school, but I can't imagine it was in America. Who knows really?! All he did was order some more blood work. That's it. I'm looking at the folder in his hand of my medical information and it's close to two inches thick…the guy didn't even know I was already taking medicine. His solution was to stop taking the medicine and then take the blood tests again. WTF!!! Just listen to me for a second and put away the statistics and let's play ball. He's worried about my cholesterol and other things and doesn't want to the increase the dosage of my drug. The side effects include cancer. Take a good long look at me doc. I smoke, I'm a recovering alcoholic. I live a precarious life. I'm not real worried about dying; I'm worried about the quality of the life I'm actually living.

Also today was the last day my mother had to work before vacation. She has the week off and it's paid. I seriously doubt she'll be going back the following Monday after vacation. Also, I know the manager where she works. We're kind of friends I guess you could say. I've worked there myself. We all can't stand the dumbfuck asshole that through some cosmic and mystical way ended up owning a business. I promise, and this isn't exaggerating, if the President of the United States could meet and spend a little time around this man, he would give and executive order to reopen all mental hospitals immediately. He's that big of an asshole. I mean to the point I truly believe they make no medicine for someone like him. Only straps, a strait jacket and a padded room…maybe even a little EST thrown in just so the staff could have some fun. I mean if they had to guard him all day, you gotta throw the dog a bone and give them some sort of relief. I'd say give them drugs for watching him, but I'm afraid he'd take advantage of the situation (like he does everyone around him, btw) and escape. But enough about him, I'm not going to go into how I think blowing his knee caps off would be fun. Or how one employee wanted to superglue his mouth shut, or how another one wanted to stab him to death with a butter knife. The point is, he's a dick! So me, my mom, and the manager are all going to get together sometime this weekend and have a get drunk boss bashing party. I think it'll allow us to vent and then my mom can enjoy the rest of her vacation.

Oh yeah, I had a birthday a couple of days ago. I'm the big "none of your business." It was fun. We all went out to eat and had a nice time. I got lots of fun gifts. So that's cool.

I think that's all for today. It's enough, anyway.

June 14, 2011 Day 6

Today I am sore. I went to the gym and worked out yesterday and it was a good workout. A funny thing about me going to the gym is that I can't wait to finish my sets of every exercise because I'm lifting such a light weight. It's sort of like hurry up and get rid of the evidence—take the weights off as fast as I can, so not too many people see what I was benching. I can't wait until I can at least put a couple of 45 lb. weights on the barbell. When I can get to that point, I'm going to take as long as I can to get through a set. I might even just sit around on the bench so everyone can see that I'm actually lifting "man size" weights. It's really embarrassing.

I also did a lot of reading about stereo equipment. I'm putting together a system for my grandmother and it's really a lot of work. Tons of choices and I don't want to make a mistake with her money. So I'm probably even pickier than I would be if I were building a system for myself. I love technology, so even though this is actually a lot of work, I'm enjoying it. I guess that's why I'm not getting paid.

This brings me to another thing, Chinese knockoffs and pirated whatever. Ever notice on the news how when they do a story about counterfeit goods, they always talk about how the quality is substandard, and it costs the economy billons. That's a great story. But why do they always have to throw in the part where it could be "endangering" your very life. And if that isn't enough, then the money from counterfeit goods goes straight to the hands of terrorist organizations around the world. So if you buy a knockoff brand-named sneaker, in a way, you are responsible for the bombings in Kenya and 9-11.

You know, the media had me up until the point they said "substandard quality and costing the economy billions." I'm a good enough American that I sure don't want to cost my neighbor his job, and I value a dollar enough that I don't want a bunch of cheap knockoff goods around my house. That to me is a reasonable assumption. I wonder whatever happened to journalistic integrity. Reporting the news in a fair and unbiased manner leaving the public to grow their own conclusions. They totally lose me when they try to make me believe that the fake brand T-shirt I bought is going to kill me or anyone else. The only terrorist being supported by my illegal actions are the media companies who report this shit. And that's all it is. Journalistic capitalistic enforces and money motivated propaganda bullshit. To me, they've just lost all credibility. So now, whenever possible, I look for the counterfeit goods at a deeply discounted price. It might not be as good…and it might be more cheaply made. But at least I'm not supporting the companies who support "news media terrorism." In fact, I am supporting capitalism in its purist form. One company makes something cheaper and more readily available than another company. It's what makes this country great. How in the hell can profits from drugs and counterfeit goods support terrorist?! How come they never do the report in a more realistic fashion? Something much more believable, something like this:

"Tonight, our cameras go undercover to show you how the profits from counterfeit goods are paying for this man's night out on the town, the girls on his arms, and the high-end luxury car he drives to all of the best and exclusive nightclubs in all of Europe. That's right, while you are watching this report; the very threads in the knockoff shirt you're wearing are falling apart. And while that's happening, this man is having the time of his life…and you're paying for it."

That's believable. Furthermore, that'd piss me off enough to always make sure I buy from reputable dealers. Give me a break!!! Wake up and smell the coffee everyone.

I guess that's enough of a rant for this evening.

June 8 2011, Day 3

So I'm still feeling very sore and I haven't been to workout in two days now. I haven't walked either. But, I am sure eventually I'll be feeling like hitting the gym and the track again.

 

Today I had a lot of time to sit and read the internet. I spent a while learning about motorcycles and this and that. Somehow or another I began reading about drugs. I mean actual pharmaceuticals. That might be a sign of getting older I guess. When you become interested in drugs that don't alter you mind. Then I watched TV, and started thinking about things. Then I went into a bad mood. Really, if it's not a happy story don't read it.

 

If I sometimes sound like an anti-American pessimist, it's probably because I love America but I hate the way we're doing a lot of things these days. I mean everywhere you turn it's all about the money. Jessie Ventura had or still has an entire show about conspiracy theory. In the show he said something that pretty much rings true to whatever truth you want to find. "Follow the money." And that's it. Does this holistic approach to curing something really work? What do people say? What do doctors say? Why is the medical community against it? Follow the money and you'll find out. I hate how everything is an "industry" these days. People don't go to colleges or universities because they're passionate about an area of study or that there even really interested in higher educational pursuits. And for our sins, banks are now involved in education. Incredible the amount of money people are paying for school. Here, I suggest outsourcing as well. Look at going to school in another country. Besides, you'll gain a butt-load of experience and learn a foreign language…from native speakers. Do you know what your $15,000 four year degree obtained in another country is worth in America? It's worth the same as any $100,000+ American degree. And think about it. Wouldn't the $85,000 difference make a great down payment on your first car and house in whatever city you choose to live in? I mean really. Protest school…study in another country. Among other things, the water, the air…whatever else you can think of…It's becoming more and more controlled by capitalist. That means water isn't free anymore. Health isn't a right. School is for a bunch of brats whose parents can afford the price tag.

 

While I'm on a rant here, let's talk about charities too. They're all a sham. Churches are sending their teenagers to countries to work with missionaries. Did you know there are entire private travel agencies who cater to churches for "mission" trips? I got letters in the mail for relatives raising money for their church so they could travel to Italy to do the work of God. Italy? Excuse me, I don't have the numbers, but is there anyone in Italy who isn't Catholic? South America is probably 75% Catholic. Churches are sending these "teens" to work with missionaries in some of the most Christian nations and regions of the entire world. Even the churches are corrupt.

 

So that's where my head has been for last few hours. Not a good place to be alone in there.

 

We'll see how I feel about going to the gym tomorrow, or at least walking. Hopefully I'll feel like walking.

 

Now I'm going to look at some personals web-sites and dream about getting married to a beautiful foreign woman. At least I have plans for the night.

June 5 2011, Day 1

This morning I got up at about 3:00 AM. I had gone to bed around 9:00 last night, so I didn't feel like I got enough sleep. But, my eyes were wide open. So, I went ahead a started my day. It took me a while to wake up, but by 5:00 I was off to the gym to begin my new workout plan. Note: it's always a good idea to hire a trainer…if you can. I can't. I've posted my work out on bodybuilding.com. Feel free to take a look. Like I was saying, I was doing well until my very last set which were deadlifts. That's when I felt this dull pain in my groin muscle. I knew immediately I had pulled it. I think it's called a "grade II strain" or something like that. That put an end to the rest of my workout which is walking 2.5 miles. I was to begin doing that twice a day. We'll see how tomorrow goes.

I've also spent a lot of time reading about motorcycles today--learning about all of the different parts and all. For myself, I find that looking at the websites of particular makes and models is a great place to begin. For some reason though, I tend to learn best about things when I think about the tweaking of the product. What would it cost to totally trick it out. I can spend hours doing things like that. I read about Kawasaki mostly. There really isn't that much you can do to those. They just changed the model, so it'll be several more months before the aftermarket companies really start coming out with parts. I mean you can drop a ton of cash, but I'd still like to have more options. When I look up each part I'm "dreaming" about, it helps me to learn what the part is, and why it's better than stock. Also, it helps a lot to read the online review…does everyone like it or hate it?

Oh yeah, I also had to go to the blood place to give a sample. I'm getting my Hepatitis immunizations and they need to make sure I don't actually have it or have had it, something like that. That's always a fun thing to do. I guess the feeling is sort of like when you go get tested for aids and STD's. There is this sort of feeling in the back of your head saying "what are you going to do if you have it? You know, you could have it. You've done a lot of stupid shit." So I'm also dealing with that but it's nowhere nearly as bad as an aids test. That one really made me worry. You start thinking "that bitch gave me aids!!! I'm gonna kill her!!!" and the emotions are everywhere until you get the call. When they said I was negative for HIV, I made them repeat it so I could be clear. Thank God!!! Actually, I didn't have anything. That was sort of amazing I though. Oh well. So now I'm dealing with the what if's of Hepatitis. I'm sure if I had it, it would have shown up in my STD tests. My mind just likes to fuck with me, that's all. Wish me luck.